Look into my eyes so that I may tell myself what to think.
I can’t remember what the feeling is and how much it knows.
But you recall,
you never left,
and that is my haunting, my pain and price for mistake.
The well inside, the reservoir of emotion
has quickened to a boil
From the ashes, the terrible agonizing remainder
rises the fiery phoenix god of anger,
my revenge on myself for rejection by my self.
I no longer ask for you to understand,
and I yearn for the false glory,
attentions from the careless,
signs upon my body read messages for the damned,
untold unsung unknown and together all together here forever.
Run out once more,
please leave my company
to invite the sweet vampire pain to embrace my mind
to fill your seat.
Depart from my eyes, strike down my pride, just shatter the illusion
the gift gone go lucky feeling happy play.
We all know, we can all see the little child crying,
crying for attention,
falling for attention,
dieing to be with you.
Desperation is the game,
loneliness the sin,
loneliness the reward.
Desperation is my sin, my bounty, my child.