Though I rise slowly,
the Earth drops below me at an alarming rate,
the palette paling from verdant azures to the quickening void of space.
Even as the vista shrugs off the color and sound of life,
my view is narrowed,
pulsing and throbbing in silence at the edge of my sight,
washing away to a single, uninterrupted circle of focus,
a portal into a deeper nothing than that surrounding me.
I am not truly here,
no. I am no longer truly anywhere,
and it is a broken husk with sightless vision that stares emptily
at a horizon that my consciousness cannot perceive –
I am become a ghost,
tormented apparition that is itself imperceptible
even as I lose the concept of perception.
The breath of the wind touches something that used to be a part of something
that I was a part of,
but am no longer.
The rushing caresses the intimates of ears
that no longer drive thoughts of hearing or of sound or of meaning,
the clip of my boot on the ground is a sound lost,
empty shaking of air with no information,
no echo in my person.
Like the breeze race past thought upon thought,
dreams of understanding,
aspirations of immortality and of grandeur,
and all that is is contained in the wake of their passing,
but I am no longer drawn to stretch out the reach of my mind to grasp them.
Instead I know of their passing,
I understand the loss of their whispers
as my apathy and impotence finalize their emphemerality.
Like a single drumbeat,
cached in the roar of thought and unheard sound and sightless vision
stirs a still, small voice that hums a single phrase;